The last couple of weeks have been a whirlwind. So many things have happened, good things.
I have been keeping up with my exercise routine. I am now up to 60 crunches on the exercise ball, plus around 20 squirms and 20 flutter kicks. For upper body, I’m doing about 15 push-ups on knees, and 5 full push-ups, plus around 10-15 reps each of bicep curls, tricep lifts, and lateral deltoid lifts with the exercise band (which is a lower resistance one, but not sure what its actual resistance is because I got it at the thrift store). For legs, I’ve been walking about 1 – 2 miles a day at a brisk pace, practicing my blocking set in horse’s stance, and plie-releve sets (about 20 in first position). I stretch carefully and thoroughly and practice leg swings and kicking – front and side kicks, mainly. But my left hip has been giving me trouble, joint-wise, so I’m working on building up the muscles around the hip and keeping limber with lots of deep hip stretches.
I’ve lost a bit of weight, as evidenced by my waistbands getting looser, but I’m also seeing and feeling the muscle definition in my arms, especially my biceps and wrists. They’re starting to look and feel like my arms again. My own strong, capable, agile arms.
So I’m slowly returning to my body after a long, long time away. I’m loving my body again, good and proper. I’m enjoying my body in ways that amaze and astound me.
And I’m cultivating my “beginner’s mind” as best I can. Every moment is a new moment, every moment is a perfect moment of life.
Practicing meditation, especially metta meditation, has been a critical component of this process. It shores up my mind-body connection, and it gives my mind the space to allow emotions to come and accept them for what they are. And I can see so much more clearly now how emotional states and body states are connected. The experience of emotion is not just in the brain, of course, but now I’m so much more aware of how my heart and guts and muscles dance in tune with my emotions. Meditation allows me to fine-tune that awareness so that I can cultivate the seeds of well-being.
And what a beautiful garden I can cultivate with those seeds!