Salix's Shiny Things

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Joy in my skin. October 28, 2015

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So I did something that is totally kind of weird and crystal-new-agey-hippy-drippy for me, and I loved it.

Yep, I achieved approximately this level of hippy today.

Yep, I achieved approximately this level of hippy today.

pic credit: http://nemharapa.blogspot.hu/2013_05_01_archive.html

It was totally and completely unplanned, which may be what made it work for me.

What did I do?

I meditated for 15 minutes, buck nekkid in the sun.

Why did I do it?

Well, for a few days I’ve been going braless at home.  As I have a large bust, this wasn’t all that comfortable at first, but I had to because I was having some awful allergic reaction to deoderant and laundry detergent (thank you, delicate Northern European skin!) that was making me miserable, and having as much airflow as possible is the best cure for me.

And as I’ve written about in previous posts, I have a love/hate relationship with my breasts, which is usually more on the hate side.

But today they felt nice.  And as I leaned over to pick something off the floor, they felt lovely, and they looked adorable to me.  +100 for self acceptance and love!

So I was getting ready to meditate, and I started sitting in the sun inside the back patio, and I thought – gosh, what would it feel like if I sat here naked, in all this warm sunlight?  Pretty great, I’m thinking…

(Yep, I am super lucky to work from home, folks!)

So I did.  I checked to make sure I couldn’t be seen by neighbors, got comfy, and sat there in delightful nudity while my guided meditation app talked about joy and compassion and white light.

And I didn’t try to ignore or transcend my body.  I tried feeling every piece of it.  I took enormous joy in feeling the heat of the sun and the breezes playing across my skin.

I felt amazing, and it still feels amazing to just simply delight in the presence of my full, shiny body.

Today was a good day.

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The mirror August 10, 2014

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Mirrors are strange things.  Sure, on the physical level, they merely allow light to bounce off the silvery backing and into your eyes.  But what you see in the mirror is filtered through your faculties of perception.  Your eyes may let the light in, but you “see” with your mind.  And so what you see when you look in the mirror is not necessarily a “real” or “objective” view of yourself.  What you think, you see.

For someone with depression or anxiety issues or body issues, mirrors can be horrible things.  I’ve learned to ignore them, as spending time looking in them meant looking at someone who, at some level, I deeply disliked and was deeply disappointed in.  I criticized every scar, bump, blackhead, scraggly hair, wrinkle.  I saw them as bright, neon signs showing the world how sad and pathetic I was.

Last night, though, I looked and saw a fierce, strong woman with long hair striped in silver.  I saw a Jade Fox, long hair streaming, eyes confident and defiant.  I saw a Jackie Chan smile, warm with a mischievous glimmer.

Jade Fox, Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon

Jade Fox, Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon

Jackie-Chan-CelebHealthy_com

Jackie Chan, of course

 

For the first time in a long time, I was happy with what I saw in the mirror.

 

pic credits:
Jade Fox http://www.ejumpcut.org/archive/jc48.2006/womenWarriors/images/10.jpg
Jackie Chan http://celebhealthy.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/Jackie-Chan-CelebHealthy_com.jpg